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THis is the Time to Say GoodBye:) [May. 29th, 2006|12:00 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
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[mood |contemplativecontemplative]

For many reasons and especially because of the fact I have evolved and changed these recent months I have decided that violentsoul is finished:)
I have to close that page,like when your notebook is full.
I have chosen another one with the spirit that inspires me these days the fae Child in me;)
you all have a fae child in you,dont deny it;p

so well feel free to add me if you want to read me,it will be public anyway as  I am not scared of evil comments or anonymous ones:)
I dont mind:)
I am open and I welcome everyone,but of course that does not mean I will add you back,because I want to be sincere and honest to myself first and respect you too:)
useful for me to add you if I never read you or just don't feel much interested whatever!
That should arouse your anger and vehemence,it is but my Choice:)

I am so excited about this new livejournal,though I am a bit pissed off about the advertisement on the side grrrr,I had surely made a mistakes with the buttons!
so follow the links and the starlight path to my heart;)

Bright blessings and namasté,it was a real pleasure to have been here,it was fun.
I am very grateful for what  I have lived,all the interactions and getting to see some nice souls and the wonderful feedbacks:)
if I dont add you please dont take it personaly or bad, maybe it's just time for me to part with you:)

Blessed be everyone!be happy and take good care of your souls***

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more pictures for you to see :) [May. 29th, 2006|10:31 am]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |busybusy]

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continuing our journey in Paris( late april) [May. 28th, 2006|11:14 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
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[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]

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first shot of pictures in late April:) [May. 28th, 2006|07:11 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |creativeinspired and blessed]


the rest tonight or tomorrow:)
faery smiles***
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back on internet ;) [May. 28th, 2006|09:49 am]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |cheerfulcheerful]

I am BACK :)
I have internet at home wouuuuuouuuuuuuuh;D
Now I am going to upload a thousand pictures and show you my world of these past months:)
nice morning everyone;)
hey Helen darling I have received your magnificent letter wouaaaaaaaaaaah wonderful,thank you so very much:) was so happy to get it when I came back from Paris:)
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a very pleasant and interesting day in Paris:)so much to gaze at so little time... [May. 26th, 2006|10:26 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |nauseatednauseated]

today was a very charming day:)
we had sun and it was rather pleasant:) we hang out in Paris.
We visited the Guimet museum,very interesting about the whole art from asian countries:) fascinating,but we hadn t time to do, it entirely so we might go there again:)
I loved all the buddhas and ganesh and siva,it inspired me a lot!
I feel more and more related to buddhism and hinduism,these philosophies are my path to understanding and acceptance.
we also visited the palais de tokyo where there was a nice exhibition about the skin.
Very intriguing theme and very interesting things but maybe too few,too short...
In the palais de Tokyo there were very nice shops;p arghhh dont go to Paris when you can't afford to buy things;p
Of course seb wanted a book about graphism & rebellion and I just bought a pack of 30 Emily strange postcards;)
You can only find these in Paris,not in small Cambrai;p
Near the Seine we could find nice book shops called the bouquinist I guess...le quai des bouquinistes? well I am not very Parisian;)
But there were very old books,journals and postcards:) my fascination!
arrrrgh again,I had to buy two cards for I got so inspired when I saw them;) I am eager to work with them!!!( need a printer badly)
we saw the cow parade again and some cows we hadn't seen the first time:)
It was very nice to walk on the champs Elysée though it's strangely remind me of my Past in/with Paris...weird...
all in all we walked a lot today!and surely spent too much money but well we'll just find a way to spare on other things next month,that's all:)
Tomorrow we are invited to eat out with Sebastien's father and either we will take the road back home or maybe stay until sunday morning,I still am not sure...

I have eaten way too much chocolate cake tonight,I feel bad...:/we just ate very small cheese sandwiches in paris so tonight I had to eat a lot,silly me...I feel I could do without eating the whole week from now;p

well I hope you all had a nice friday and are ready for the weekend!
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wanted to react [May. 25th, 2006|09:45 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |pensivepensive]

"Hate Humanity? Yep, sure do. There's such a lack of responsibilty for one's actions in the world, a selfishness, and a great destruction in the way people live their lives. It's all instant gratification,and who cares how my instant gratification affects those around me, or on a small personal level or a global level. The way people treat eachother is truly disgusting, and we've created an environment through advances in science and technology that allows for a very septic society to thrive. And we breed and breed, and all the wrong people breed while all the right people don't wanna have children because they don't wanna place them in this world."
~Davey Havok, AFI~

I have found that quote in some journals and was rather shocked that people could be in awe with such words!
That sounds so pretentious and so judgemental!
Goddess the "wrong people"???who is that guy coming from a music band,well he should do politics if he wants to change something instead of just having easy eloquent language to show off.

Things like that piss me off because I think it's totally absurd and very self important to say you hate, humanity,then kill yourself darling for you are right in the middle of this humanity,sorry!

I am not just an idealistic dreamer who thinks life is pretty and everything is fine!
I am aware of the reality but does it gives me the right to say people should not breed it's so wrong?
Who are they to say so?
Is it so wrong to want to give life?
Aren't we glad to be alive,to feel alive and to be able to feel,love,share,admire,gaze for hours at little things,small details of the beauty of this world,nature,human beings...

I do know that if we look closer we will always see something nasty,cruel and whatever in humanity and in the world,because nothing is perfect!

Who wants a perfect humanity?that's a scary nationalist ideology...

Maybe we value more people's knowledge and intelligence thanks to ignorance,maybe we value more the love,the compassion and empathy when we are aware of the cruelty,the carelessness and so forth...
I dont believe humanity is all about selfishness

Of course we all live our live,we are egocentrical by essence,because we are us and till we are not devoted to God or something we are not totally self neglected so
But anyways really I do believe in empathy,compassion,kindness for free!

I do believe in the beauty of humanity and all the things we can give,change,share,improve...I admire humanity for the way she always can evolve...

Now I am quite aware of so many unfair things that could or SHOULD be solved,like the fact some babies die in some countries because they can t have access to medecines!
These things are unbearable,because it is not impossible...it's just a fucking money bullshit!

I dont think it's clever to make generality,because saying "the way people treat each other is disgusting' I can't relate to it,not at all

Sure we are human so we feel pain and that's why sometimes we make suffer those we love,we can be cruel,we can be silly,we can do very stupid things out of anger and I know it shouldn t be an excuse for it's silly!
Yet I am not blind to the things we can do for another sister or brother,the way we can listen closely,empathize,try to understand and help,be there for somebody else because we are human only and we have lived or felt the same...

as for the progress of science and technology I am not very aware about all this,but even if progress scares me a lot sometimes ,when it is about finding remedies for illness like fucking cancers or aids,I am all for it...even if it has to kill animals sometimes if it can t be done otherwise,those illnesses make too much casualties and it something that truly broke my heart...
We all know somebody or more who have died from cancer don't we?

well there would be more to say about this,but that's it for now, tomorrow we are going to visit the guimet museum in Paris and see lots of things about asian societies!!!:) I will enjoy that:)and we might see the palais de tokyo and surely have a walk on the champs elysée:)

Hope it'll be sunny:)
today I have seen my nephews:) the baby William is so cute:) it was adorable:)
I was glad to see my sister:) we had a really nice time except we couldn t go out due to the rain.
I took lots of photos:) Romain was playing so I also filmed him,he is such a cute angel but very noisy and tiring sometimes ahah like children I guess:)
I was glad he loved my presents:)children are so easy to please:)

Blessings and namasté***
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a charming holiday near Paris:) [May. 23rd, 2006|11:10 am]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |pensiveinspired]

Tomorrow we are going to Paris in the suburbs to meet seb's family but especially to see my brand new nephew;)
It'll be so cute to see such a young and tiny baby:) I am eager for it:)
We might also find some time to go see a museum or gallery in Paris!!:)
We will stay there until saturday and then come back home:)

Some people don't give me news since a long long time now so I have accepted it and I have decided that it was over,nevermind:)

I do know ends always mean new beginnings;) Bring it on!!!!;)
Lately I have made another altered tin box:) :) some atcs,hanging hearts and a pretty picture frame with a collage inside it:)

I have so many pictures to show!!!
Bright blessings & namasté
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the party:) [May. 19th, 2006|12:36 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |tiredtired]

Greetings dear souls***

I still dont have internet at home because they made a mistake in our phone number;) so cool...
It looks like a real detox now
I dont really miss internet,I miss the souls behind it and the inspiration and sharing;)
But things are fine:)
We've had our warming up yesterday it was real fun and a nice evening
We finally had about 10 friends of Seb from his classroom.
I did not know some of them and they were nice and funny. We really had a good time,laughing and playing cards.
They played at the game called "once upon a time...' which is a card game,you have to tell a story.
It's funny because you know it always go the wrong way in the end and end up behind about sexual things or pooh and things like that=D
But we laught and his friends had a big imagination as disturbed and weird as it was ahah;)
I had made a big chocolat fondant cake with whipped cream ,it was delicious:)

Everyone said our new apartement was really cool and big:)
I think finally I am more and more opened now,for I really enjoy inviting people at home.
But ok I still stress on silly things,like when girls were swinging on the very old chairs we had from my grandparents or crumbs on cakes on the carpets etc;)
silly things

Takun was also the king of the party,everyone admired him and how funny he was;)
I am glad for I feel more at ease with others than before
I am still me introverted but I still talk and feel friendly and not cold which is a real improvement for me:)

It ended only at 2:00 am which is already enough for my old mind:p eheh,I love going to bed early=)
I am an health freak=)

if I am late on bdays at the moment dont be cross I dont forget you I just have money issues and no internet to be aware etc etc
But I don't forget you :)

next week I'll go near paris by car with seb( yes paris again) in fact it is to see my second nephew who's born on the 8th of may:)
he looks so cute!!!
I have of course bought presents for him and my other adorable angelic nephew Romain<3 I have spoiled them to be honest,I hope they will love it
I know I shouldn t hvae for I am short on money but I couldn t stop myself with all those cute tshirts and things:)
I will show you pictures in June when Ill have internet back
I will have more than an hundred pics to share Goddess!
Pics of my narcissism;),pics of Paris and the cow parade,pics of my family,pics of springtime,pics of my art and pics of my new home:)
well well well It will take me a lot of time
faery dust****

ps: I have worked on an article about my house of time to be published in artitudezine, the girl is interested see what will happen:)
I ll be very glad and honoured to be published,we ll see:) or else I'll publish myself in Blank page girls;)

Blessed be everyone:)
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will leave this place soon [May. 12th, 2006|10:10 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]

This journal will soon be closed or used only for poetic writing I don't know,maybe I'll just close it,I have to begin something new
I have to think about a username I won't get bored about first...

I am feeling terribly exhausted tonight,don't really know why,if it's the hot weather or just the bad night...in my last dreams last night I dreamt I was sort of sick and tired of noises and funny enough I felt this way being at my parents,just want to hang around with ear plugs here;p

I am even thinking about going Home tomorrow,I dont know,versatile me never know how to take silly simple decision:p
well if I feel that urge to make art burning inside of me I'll have to drive my tired self back home;)
well of course I will surely not add everyone to my new livejournal,because i'd rather be honest to myself and sometimes yes I do add you for you sound interesting and then the contact doesn't work much so it's no use...well I guess I'd made a big explanation in the first entry of my next lj;)

Brightest blessings & namasté
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Wondering what Friendship means to the world...to the others... [May. 12th, 2006|03:19 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
The sky is so blue,everything is fine and so gentle:)

The magnolias were all full of glorious flowers,so proud and competing to the sun and now most of them are lying down on the lawn...whereas the lilac are still resisting,they won't give in to the coming summer:)
They scent so sweet...
Springtime smells so delicious but it's slowly fading away,and the kerbs are covered in white and pink from all the so pretty trees...
It's a gentle nostalgia...time flies,every phases is over so,another season is on the threshold and sometimes some bonds have to be cut and fade away suddenly...we cannot question.
Life is life...would we ask Spring why does he leave?

It would be ridiculous.
So I will shut my mouth and stiffle my being upset...
It's no use to try and glue back the magnolia flowers to the bows,I have to accept things.

I know some friends will leave me,I do know that...some will just change their mind on me or grow tired with times, it requires maturity and intelligence to understand we build a true friendship bond with time:)

and of course sometimes people won't offer us this time.
That's just life and I am so emotional and real that I have to dramatize things and feel so upset almost sad...Guess it's not understanding why someone just say no to the friendship you offer...well I guess it's also so weird when that same person was so scared I would stop writing to her...I don't understand!
This is just so unbelievable?

I have this right to feel upset even if it's ridicule, I have this right to wonder why and wonder if I did something wrong ...oh and worry about her...

I think it's also because I am so honest and that when I tell you you are a true friend I mean it...lj friends are not true friends sometimes,it's trying to get to know someone and create a friendship link,but sometimes it's not so real...

well Except for this story and the end of Springtime I am super fine,so happy I got the wonderful tins by my adorable Sheri ;)****

Impatient to alter them and spread some faery magick here and there;)
I am also very enthusiast to be able to dress with summer clothes;) so vain;)ahaha
it's just so light and comfortable,so soft...

I am at my parents for the weekend
I am going to create a new livejournal soon:)

Violentsoul doesn't fit my personality and feelings at the moment:)

Blessed be everyone!
oh and something very important if you feel like dumping me soon do it now,I am in the mood to handle as sad it can be, but please don't make me lose my time,love and energy to give pieces of my soul to you and let you enter my world if you just don't give a fucking damn about me:)

take care****
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How to live without internet:p [May. 9th, 2006|12:04 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
still no internet, missing it for many things...
things are fine here,we are finally settled and enjoying our new Home
We also invited a couple of friend last saturday and it was really pleasant,a nice time:)

we still haven t had the big warming up party because of many things but we might do it next week:)
I still have to buy things for the house and the moving was of course even more expensive than we imagine:////arrrgh
but we handle it:)

I am slowly receiving mail again:) and beautiful postcard from forums and postcardx etc:) that makes my day!=)

This weekend I have been back to my creative world, I have made some atcs ,cards and bookmarks but I was rarely very pleased with the result
I have many things to do and I have to focuse on a theme or else I wont do anything I know myself;p

I have sent letters for job in Cambrai today,wish me luck;)

well I am eager to have internet back!!!!!!I want to show you pics of my home,my art,my life:)
Blessed be and big smiles to everyone :) :) :)

ps: though I miss you i see I really can live without internet ,it's just my need to be inspired and to communicate,to meet deep souls and have interesting sharing that makes me NEED the net so much***

life is so sweet these days**

ps: Ilga a letter is ready for you!
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Hey there my darlings:) [Apr. 28th, 2006|03:53 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |exhaustedexhausted but happy]

Just a little entry to let you know that I am very well and full of sweet bliss in my New Home Sweet Wonderland****
Sincerely I feel so blessed at the moment,I am so lucky to have been able to have this apartment=)
Knowing it will only be for a year seems so short to me sighs
but I will defenetly enjoy it,I am so eager to have our warming up to celebrate this new home and show it to everyone:) it might be fun:)
I am still no party people but I think it will be pretty and cool to have seb's friends here and to make lots of cakes,eat candies,brownies,and all the delicious evil food mwahahhahahah;) a good excuses to eat yummy things in fact;)
No sincerely it s cool to invite people so that I can cook for them:)
I am so eager to show you the pictures,but I still have a lot to tidy alas:(
I haven t done artworks,nor written letter or pages in my paper jrnl I feel so weird about it,I miss it like crazy!!!!!!

We don't have internet yet but I dont miss it much as I dont have the time for it:p
But I do miss you a lot my friends!!!

Helen darling I miss youuuuuu!!!! I was listening to your song this morning and thought how much I wanted to write you!!!!!!!! But I cant find the time I hope to be able to do it tonight if my pretty fairy bedroom is finally tidied:)
I hope so!!!! I have so much to share with you my sweet flower fairy;)

I miss receiving letters!!!! I just got a rejections for job today:(((( sad indeed...it was about the job interview I got on monday:( oh well it went bad so I wasn t surprised but the man was truly mean and judgemental! a real fucker!
He told me " I am very SURPRISED that you've been unemployed for 3 years!"
it was enough to drive me crazy!!!
I tried to remain as diplomate and quiet as I could but I was a little agressive because I felt judged and it pissed me off!
I told him that Unemployment was not something I invited,that it was real!

I think I will remake my curriculum vitae and lie even more so that I will only have 6 months or one year of unemployment
but it annoys me so bad when people judge you this way,it's so fake and stupid!
Beside I only have two years and a half of unemployement and I work my ass off to find this dull fucking job but I do what I can...

well I really hope I will find something soon because I NEED money...we had such a bill of electricity no comment...I will ask them to pay in two times I can't afford it

well I am writing this from Seb's school,maybe if we are lucky we will have internet back next week
Have a beautiful weekend sweet friends and take good care of you, I hope you are all fine :)

Blessed be!
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Life is so cool:) [Apr. 20th, 2006|10:14 pm]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]

this is it:)
tonight is our last sleep in this Home...We've lived here for about a year and a half,so it's so weird;)
A nice girl friend of Seb came to help us move some packets to our new apart' and she was so surprised when she saw it!
she said it was so cool,so full of space,so new,so nice:)
I felt even luckier to have found this place
I have baptized it with incence finally,the one you offered me dearest Carmen( with non toxic materials in it eheh good for a health freak like me,I fear all toxic things;p they are everywhere!even in your day cream,your shower gel,coloration etc etc...it's amazing!!!!I am not paranoid!!!!o_O eheh)

Tomorrow morning my parents will hire a van for the moving,we've bought the fridge,a small one for 99 euros,a lot of money for us,but it was the cheapest we could find so it's still cool and we'll have it for a long time;)

Seb and I have quarrelled more than usual due to stress,silly fighting,but I adore him more than ever;)
I feel so lucky to have him by my side:)

I've taken my last bubble bath here because we only have a shower over there,but I don't mind...I rarely take bath,I don't take the time for it,showers are easier:)
I have decided to be more open minded to the decoration so that Seb will put his touch to every room;)if he wants to:)
Sometimes he feels so undecided that I just do what I want after all it s not my fault;p

The apartment is a mess;)
I haven't got news from the interview so I guess they did not choose me nevermind,working around smoking people who be worse than anything to me,I'd rather jump out of the window;p

Kirsty thank you so much for the adorable tiny so pretty mouse toy for Takun ahahhahah I adore it!!!It's such an adorable gift!!!
it made my day and he was so happy;) he has already adopted it,I'll have to show pictures of this!
but really I appreciate that present,it's very rare in fact that people offer something for my cat I wouldn t say it's like my child,I dont want to turn crazy cheesy;p ahah But he's such a member of our home,we could not live without him now:) he is an adorable company and make us laugh at least once everyday:)

I have not yet been to the post office to make the mail be redirected so i am still a little stressed!
I hope it will be ok

well yesterday I have slept better with ear plugs,weird because its rather quiet in the night here,but ear plugs make me feel more secure,in a total silence so I can stop from waking up all the time:)

what else to add?well I feel a little forgotten by some people dear to my heart but well maybe it's only an impression ?
I am also a little sad because two persons I like can't get emails from me,it always come back to me:(( and they don't send me letters...I hope they are fine anyways...

Hey Sheri Tomorrow I will burn the new home candle;)

I am so happy to move,I am eager to be settled and that everythign will be well tidied:)
I won't have internet till I don't know in fact maybe some days,maybe more,maybe three weeks...we'll see!

I hope everyone is fine,I am sending you lots of magical blessings and hope your dreams will be filled with glittering magnolia alleys and faery carroussels****
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New Home address [Apr. 19th, 2006|11:30 am]
Fae child sipping the nectar of being so alive
[mood |peacefulfine:)]

Please to all my penpals and friends who need my new address,give me your email here and I'll send it to you:)

Blessed be***
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